Tuesday, March 20, 2007


I am not afraid to keep on living

Things that I find difficult:
-Maintaining friendships
-Talking to strangers

We're approaching an age where we will get information instantaneously from the people actually experiencing whatever it is we want to know about. Traffic reports from the dude stuck in his car. Weather updates from the chick walking her dog. Live videos of the factory fire from cell phone cameras. Our eyes and ears will be your average upper middle class American with a techno-gadget and our opinions will be from any schmuck with a computer. Right now we don't take blogs too seriously, but it's getting there.

Sometimes I try to puff myself up with egotism and write about something I think my vast and influential readership actually might want to read, like a diatribe about blogs. More often I give in to the inscrutable exhortations of my soul and whine about my life. I guess I'm still 15 years old at the fingertips.

In order to validate my elitist attitudes towards everyone else I feel like I shoud:
-Be better read
-Listen to more classic rock
-Discuss the cinema over coffee
-Learn about wine
-Eat at hole-in-the-wall cafes

So much for a meaningful entry. See you later.

punk rawk,

Monday, March 5, 2007

stress and conversation

I don't mind you under my skin

Stress is a compound interest problem. If I could remember my math classes I'd probably be much better equipped at dealing with life's little stressors. The issue is that when one thing is keeping you on the edge of your nerves, everyday annoyances needle you to the point where someone breathing too heavily through their mouth is liable to make you lash out. It especially doesn't help when a lot of the little things are consequences of the one big thing.

For example: let's say you're dead broke. What cash flow you are bringing in has to go directly to major things like rent, bills, and gas and you don't have anything left over. This means you avoid going out with friends, which is depressing. It means a debt you owe to your roommate is suddenly postponed, which creates tension. It means you can't buy someone a birthday gift, and that you're stingy when it comes to driving places so you can conserve gas. It means when your roomie is inflexible about getting $8 your frustration with their lack of understanding is compounded much more toxically than it should be.

The good thing about stress, perhaps, is that it makes you buckle down and focus on what exactly it is you need to do to eliminate this joy-killer from your life. Lacking money? Make every second at work count. Don't spend it on silly things like Taco Bell or CDs. Sit down with the roommate and calmly discuss what it feels like to be broke and how to work around the situation. Make conversations with the boyfriend and other significant people count, since seeing them is slightly more difficult. Strengthen relationships with the parentals so you can mooch off them.

Just kidding. Sort of.

My favorite type of conversation to have is the ones where we discuss how to properly go about building a conversation. It requires not only a knowledge about interpersonal communication but also includes a sharing of ways of employing insight and tact. Hypothetical conversations are always much more significant and difficult than their real manifestations anyway. It's good brain aerobics.

Conversations in the hypothetical stage:
-The Mutal Grievences
-The State of the Union
-The Cautionary Tale

Q.E.D. bitches,

P.S. 4th Place in being funniest in the State!